Learning to be in Gods presence again.

 

Its a time of struggling and learning what your body can and can't do when you have not long been diagnosed with CFS. I never understood fully how hard it was, from listening to friends who have it, but now I know, Tiredness and fatigue should be written as exhaustion, Low mood should be written as a dark place with anxiety and depression. Not being able to cook and do the things you did, should be written as the hardest thing and so I could go on. However, as I've got very low with this, I suddenly felt God put this on my heart." Its a time to turn this around for good. A time to sit, to rest, to grow, to listen, to reach out to others, to cry, to pray, to meditate on Gods Word and just simply be" In fact, it remined me of a couple of other people that had mentioned to me as well to just simply be with Him.

So I thought...... I cant do much at times like this as I'm sure others cant either but we can sit with our Heavenly Father and just be. He knows how you are feeling He knows and understands that you may not be able to stay long at the moment but come and be, just simply be with Him. He is with us always but taking that time to just rest in your special place with God will help so much. He cares for you, He understands and He will meet with you, maybe just in a small way at the moment but as time goes on this will get better I am sure. We will realise how much we have grown in this time of darkness. I felt, as this only started a short while ago for me, that He seems so silent, a million miles away but I think this may have been because I've been struggling with a lot this last year and CFS was the 'icing on the cake'. CFS drains you and isolates you and you have no energy etc and I don't know about you but my time with God has not been that good recently because of all this. Not because I have stopped believing but because its been a physically and mentally hard time. However, I believe, the light will come again. He is a good God, a faithful God and He is with us always. Even though we may not see it now He is working. We will know His love, peace and wonderful presence shining through the darkness. Heaven may seem silent for now but just simply be and when the time is right He will speak to us again but for now just rest with Him. Simply be, as He understands. He will bring beauty out of the ashes and give us a garment of Praise Keep looking, keep trusting He is a heartbeat away.

Matthew 4 v 4

Man Shall not live on bread alone but on every Word that comes out of the mouth of God

I have been suffering lately with CFS and its quite bad at the moment, exhaustion, low mood, depression and anxiety and my time with the Lord hasn't been that great as I am just resting and watching TV as I can't do much else. I haven't been able to read my bible that much or spend much time with God either which I have found very upsetting and hard. However, two people have said just go into your quiet room and just be. If I cant pray or read Gods word just be. He knows and understands, So that's what I have been doing. And today I believe God gave me this

I had just finished praying this morning and I heard in my heart the words. "Man shall not live on bread alone but on every word that comes out of the mouth of God". I sat there quietly wondering if it was me or really God but realised it must be God. Only He would put a random verse into my mind, especially when it was just what I needed. So I thought about this word and mulled it over in my mind. Food sustains us physically but only the word of God can sustain us spiritually in times of fear, sickness, troubles worries etc in every area of our lives. The enemy will often come and say, "did God really say.....?" But our enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy and one of his tactics is to feed us lies Lies about yourself, lies about God and much more including distorting Gods word, but if you have been feeding on the word of God and have it in your heart you will have the ammunition you need, Gods word, and can declare Gods truth instead. Declare it all day if you have to but don't give the enemy a foothold. Don't listen to him. Whatever your facing declare Gods truth. Feed on it as a cow would as it eats the grass. We need to be like that as we read Gods word. Read it, regurgitate it, chew it over again and again. Get it into our hearts, minds and spirit. Let Gods word feed you, go deep. In times of trouble or need it will come to mind and we can declare Gods truth but it will also change our mindsets if these are wrong too. Take Gods word like medicine and declare it, repeating it will change your neurological pathways and where you once had wrong beliefs these will change over time.

God has given us His written word so we can read it, learn from it and keep it in our hearts so that we have the Sword of the Spirit whenever the enemy tries to weaken our walk with God or our time with Him. Maybe you are in a place like I am at the moment where ill health is causing you to be so tired and and unwell that its hard to do much at all but if the Word of God is hidden in your hearts then when the enemy comes saying lies in your mind you can declare Gods truth over your life and bring life to the situation. If the enemy is attacking then keep your armour on and declare Gods word. He is a good God a faithful God and he is with you in every situation. A song I heard a while back was by Casting Crowns "voice of Truth" its well worth a listen :)